In the late 80’s and 90’s; I went from being a gym owner, trainer, and health seminar speaker, to becoming an Internet entrepreneur. For ten long and relentless years, my lifestyle underwent a radical transformation in the wrong direction and unfortunately so did my body.
I started the decade fit, vital, and strong; I ended overwhelmed, exhausted, and overweight even though I knew volumes about nutrition and fitness. The pace of my work life far outpaced my ability to take care of myself. Living with a chronic energy deficit led to overeating and inactivity, an inability to perform well, and health complications.
Despite eating relatively “healthy” and exercising fairly regularly I remained on a “downward trend,” fatigued, and progressively more overweight. Week after week, I contemplated how I would change my life – but I kept moving forward tirelessly – over-engaging and taking on more and more to overcome what I thought were “motivational,” or “psychological” issues, (well maybe there was some of that) but wasn’t.
I had everything going on but was barely hanging on, either far too busy or just too worn out to make the changes I knew needed to be made but couldn’t quite put my finger on. I was keeping commitments to everyone, but myself. I felt stuck. I spiraled down and eventually couldn’t take it anymore.
At 30 years old, I was fat, fatigued, and burnt-out and given my prior career experience that was hard to accept. It wasn’t until the dot-com crash of 2000 eventually lead to my personal crash late that same year, when I finally said enough; “it’s time for a better way.” I needed to set up a lifestyle that was balanced and healthy, amidst the high-achieving life I tended to live.
That was my first real bout with burnout, and it’s consequences, and it would not be my last.